…entre nous soit dit…

between me you and the gatepost.


This is pretty much how I feel right now. Escape and away from cursed exams. Although my Creative writing exam on Monday was fine and I actually left 20 minutes early – the first exam I’ve EVER left from early. 

But this afternoon I had a complete freak out and melt down and just melted into a stressed mess over exams and failing my units. I had previously applied for special consideration for discretionary marking for my exams. But when I freaked out I went and applied for my two politics exams which are this week to be deferred until next semeter.

I didn’t want to and it’s probably the wussy way out and I’m not stoked about it seeing as how it’s going to be hanging over me now all holidays. no relaxing because it’s just extended exam period now. At least I only need to do two exams when I come back. I’ll do my Communications one next week so that I won’t have to worry about that one as well. It’s by far easily my worst subject, but I have a week to learn everything and get some study done. Let’s hope it helps.

Oh and for the record, it’s just as well I DID defer seeing as my friend looked up special consideration (something I hadn’t bothered to do) and turns out “discretionary marking” can be a change of grade by no more than 2% for exams and 5% for assignments. And let’s face it, that would have done sweet FUCK ALL for my exam marks and passing the units…

Thank fuck I deferred.


June 9, 2010 Posted by | epiphany, exams, Personal, photography, pictures, trouble, university | Leave a comment

Exam Number One: Creative Writing

Well this post is timed to go off while I’m still in the exam. This is probably the point in time where I’m stressing out and thinking “Shit… FUCK!!” and panic will set in with only 30 minutes to go. Let’s just hope I’m not swearing because I don’t have an idea, but because I don’t have enough time to get it out.

Let you know later!


June 7, 2010 Posted by | exams, Personal, university | Leave a comment

6 hours to go…

Alright it’s currently 3.10am and it’s just less than 6 hours to go until my first exam… and I have to get another 1500 words of another assignment done (and thats forgetting about the OTHER two assignments still overdue and not done… *sigh*). It’s looking like an all nighter which isn’t good for my sleeping patterns during exams. And not good for my study. My fault though for wasting study week on watching so many crap tv shows and movies.

I did just have a rather happy thought though. 

I’m not usually really superstitious or anything (apart from the normal try not to break mirrors or walk under ladders etc), but at the same time I see no point in pissing off kharma or whoever is up there or out there. Whatever. So in exams I make little rituals for myself that I hope and think give me good luck (and hopefully writing about them here won’t jinx me now). If nothing else, they’re just little things that make me more relaxed. 

  1. I always wear my converse.
  2. Every school exam I wore my school uniform (except maths which I didn’t have a care in the world about so I wore my PJs)
  3. During my final high school exams I used the same pen for every one of my exams until it ran out in the last one (and I had to use another similar pen haha)
  4. I always take in something that reminds me of the ones I love the most.

I was thinking about the last one just then – preparing in my head a list of all the things I need for tomorrow (today). For my granddad I have my locket  – which I always wear everyday anyway; my Dad I now take in a little dragon charm that represents my college – something he shares with me; my Mum – well I can take in virtually anything really haha but usually I count it as my charm bracelet; my sister I always wore a pearl bracelet of hers that I took years ago and she never noticed it was missing; there was a time when I used to take in this shitty little homemade bracelet for Jane, but that’s now buried in a box I keep; and the last thing I used to take in was a small orange guitar pick with a little snow flake on one side – that was always for Dom. Even in year 11.

But I realised I don’t need to do that this time. This time I’ll have my necklace with dragon, locket and paris charm (for petia), my charm bracelet, and every time I get stumped and mind blank, I’ll be able to look at my hand for something else. It’s not a guitar pick this time haha. Usually I would put it on my necklace, but this time I want to be able to see it easily.


I hate exams. But I don’t think this one will be so bad (fingers crossed I didn’t just jinx myself). It’s only first year Creative Writing after all haha 😀

June 7, 2010 Posted by | exams, happy, moods, university | Leave a comment

Quote of the Week # 22 (two again)


Eighty percent of success is showing up”

– Woody Allen

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?Actually who are you not to be?… As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

– Marianne Williamson

(quoted more famously by Nelson Mandela in his inaugaural speech 1994)



October 30, 2009 Posted by | exams, Quote of the Week, Quotes by People | Leave a comment

Just a quick note…

I won’t bother writing about the weekend and my boss at the moment. I have neither the time or the patience… plus that saga has extended for far too long on this blog. Let’s just say I’m sick of it and I feel sick about the fact that I actually went did any of what I’ve already written.

I will say this though, it is official. They broke up.

Anyways, I have a philosophy exam tomorrow, which I’m fairly sure that I’m screwed for, so it shall be fun. If only someone could tell me how to learn it in my sleep… because that’s what I plan on doing in a minute instead of staying up any longer and studying. Because that would obviously be silly…. *sigh* owell.

June 7, 2009 Posted by | exams, just a quick note, Personal, philosophy, trouble | Leave a comment

My first Publishing! ….well maybe

Joyful Joy!!
I’ve been sent a letter from the Curriculum Council asking for my permission for one (or possibly more) of my essay answers from the 2008 Literature WACE  exam to be considered for inclusion in the Literature Good Answers Guide, produced by the English Teachers Association.
You have to score above 85% for your essay to be considered for this publication, because it is supposedly only the most original of the best and the best of the best that are published. While there’s no guarantee that one of my essays will be chosen to be published, it’s still exciting to know that my essays (well at least one of them) were scored high enough to be considered.
It would be my first piece of published work anyway.
That’s definitely exciting enough for me.

March 1, 2009 Posted by | exams, Literature, school, School Work | Leave a comment

Human Biol: Prevention and Control of Infection

Year 12 Human Biology Assignment: Prevention and Control of Infection

1.B) Experiment A starts off with a slightly lower number of bacteria than experiment B, but has a steady inclining growth, ending with a higher number of bacteria. The growth pattern is exponential, but because it is on semi-log graph paper the graph becomes linear.

C) yes I think it is very likely that this strain of Staphylococcus could infect a person because over a short period of time  the bacteria has managed to grow rapidly starting with only 200 bacteria and growing rapidly to 9,000,000 over just 72 hours. If it continued to do this, after it had penetrated into the human body system, it would rapidly multiply within the body and infect cells.

D) Experiment B looks as if the drug Sulphonamide has been added at around the 48th hour when the results for the number of Bacteria stop increasing and begin to decline again. They continue to decrease after the 48th hour, indicating that the drug was working and killing off the bacteria and stemming the rapid increase of the number.

E) The number of bacteria decreases once the Sulphonamide is applied in the 48th hour. Compared to the experiment A, where the number of bacteria continues to increase, Experiment B is decreasing approximately 6.94 times slower than Experiment A is increasing between the 48th and 60th hour. Over this 12 hours this is quite a considerable difference, showing that the decrease is slower than the increase.

F) This drug would probably be ineffective against a viral infection because if it’s only aimed at a bacteria which has no nucleus and no organelles, unlike a virus which has a nucleus with DNA or RNA that infects the DNA of the human body that it is multiplying within.

2 A) A syndrome is described as ‘a group of symptoms that consistently occur together or a condition characterised by a set of associated symptoms’. This is why Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome is called a syndrome – because it is a condition characterised by a set of associated symptoms that consistently occur.  

2B) Most people have noticeable symptoms when initially infected with HIV (Human Immunodeficiency Virus) – fever, rashes, swollen lymph nodes, fatigue, and a variety of common symptoms that may develop in the first and last few weeks of the virus. The symptoms usually disappear, although the lymph nodes may stay enlarged, and a person can have the HIV (even with no symptoms) for years, or even decades before they will begin to display the symptoms of AIDS. Symptoms for AIDS can include swollen lymph nodes, weight loss, fatigue, recurring fever, diarrhoea, anaemia, and thrush. However, it is more likely that the person with AIDS will display more specific symptoms of the specific opportunistic infections and cancers that develop – the symptoms are primarily the result of infections that do not normally develop in individuals with healthy immune systems.

2C) Once in the body, HIV attaches to a number of different types of lymphocytes. HIV has its genetic material encoded in RNA. Once inside the cell, the virus uses an enzyme called reverse transcriptase to turn its RNA into DNA, which is then incorporated into the DNA of the infected lymphocyte. The lymphocyte then replicates the virus inside the cell, eventually destroying the cell.

One of the most important types of lymphocytes that the virus infects is the helper T lymphocyte, which activates and coordinates other cells of the immune system. Because the virus destroys this particular lymphocyte type, it weakens the body’s system for protecting itself against certain infections and cancers. This weakening of the body’s immune system is one of the reasons why it is not capable to rid itself of the HIV infection once it is underway.

The normal count of the helper T lymphocytes is roughly around 800 to 1,300 cells per microlitres of blood.  If the count falls below about 200 cells per microlitre of blood, then the immune system becomes less able to fight certain infections (eg pneumonia). These infection do not usually appear in people with healthy immune systems. A count of below about 50 cells per microlitre of blood is particularly dangerous, because additional opportunistic infections that can rapidly cause severe weight loss, blindness or death, commonly occur.

2D) Patients with AIDS commonly contract diseases such as influenza and pneumonia – diseases that don’t usually kill – and these can become fatal for the patient due to their poo immune system.  By the time the patient reaches the AIDS stage of the virus, their immune system is severely damaged and failing because the virus has killed many of the lymphocytes. Their helper T lymphocyte count is severely degraded from it’s usual number, and when it falls below 200 per microlitre of blood, that’s usually when the body begins to contract these opportunistic diseases and infections, because the immune system is weakened and unable to sufficiently fight them.

2E) At the moment the body cannot be vaccinated against HIV or AIDS because there is no known vaccination to date that has been trailed and proved to work. There are a few being trialled, however the process of the trialling is long and not strictly accurate, because it is given to people who are only at “high risk” of contracting the disease.

A vaccine ‘teaches’ the immune system how to defend itself against pathogens and is designed to prevent one specific disease or pathogen. This means that a vaccine matches with a certain disease. A preventative vaccine is meant for people who have not been infected with the pathogen that the vaccine is designed to protect against, but it not a treatment or cure for someone who is already infected with that specific pathogen.

This means that a HIV/AIDS vaccine will be harder to find because the virus kills off the helper T lymphocytes which co-ordinate and activate the other cells of the immune system. If these cells don’t work then they won’t be able to carry out what the vaccine has ‘taught’ them to do when infection occurs.

2F) AIDS itself is not contracted from an outside source, because it is the end stages of the Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV). However, the transmission of HIV requires contact with a body fluid that contains the virus or infected cells. HIV can appear in nearly any body fluid, but transmission is more likely to occur from blood, semen, vaginal secretions and breast milk. Although low concentrations of HIV are found in tears, urine, and saliva, transmission from these fluids is extremely rare. HIV is transmitted though:

·      Sexual contact with an infected person during which the mucous membrane lining of the mouth, rectum, vagina, or penis is exposed to infected body fluids (usually unprotected sex).

·      Injection or infusion of infected blood, as occurs during blood transfusions, sharing needles, or an accidental prick from a HIV infected needle. (This isn’t as much of a problem as it used to be, because since 1985 all donated blood for transfusions has been screened for HIV and where possible, blood products are treated with heat to eliminate the risk of HIV infection. There is also a big awareness and emphasis put on the necessity for clean needles to be used)

·      Transfer of the virus from an infected mother to a child before birth, during birth, or after birth through the mother’s milk (in around 25 to 30%* of pregnancies involving infected women, the virus is transmitted to the foetus through the placenta or, at birth during the passage through the birth canal)
*statistics from ‘The Merck Manual of Medical Information, Home Second Edition’ (2004) Pocket books: USA

Vulnerability to HIV infection increases when the skin or mucous membrane (which is very delicate) is torn or damaged (even minimally), as can happen during vigorous vaginal or anal sex or when either on or both of the partners has another Sexually Transmitted Disease (particularly herpes or syphilis) that produces breaks in the skin or irritation of the genitals.

Different groups of the population are more likely to contract HIV than others. HIV and AIDS used to be thought of as a “gay man’s disease”, and in the United States, Europe and Australia, HIV has mainly been transmitted through male homosexual contact and the sharing of needles among injecting drug users, but the transmission through heterosexual contact has been rapidly increasing. In 2000, America saw that 42% of the new HIV infections developed in homosexual men, 33% in heterosexual men and women, and 25% in injecting drug users. However, in Africa, the Caribbean and Asia, HIV infections occur principally through heterosexuals, and it occurs equally between men and women.
(statistics from ‘The Merck Manual of Medical Information, Home Second Edition’ (2004) Pocket books: USA)

2G) Certain precautions can be taken in the future to try and help prevent “the new plague” sweeping worldwide, such as by properly always using things such as protection (in particular condoms) during intercourse and always using a clean and new needle before injecting can help to minimise some of the numbers of infected people. Regular screenings for people who are sexually active could also be suggested seeing as HIV can often go unnoticed or unknown for a long time after contraction, which means the infected person, could unknowingly be transmitting it to others.

However this becomes a problem in some areas, because they don’t have enough money to do these sorts of things. An example of this is in Africa where there is a very high risk of contracting an STD including HIV. Because not many of the people in Africa can afford to use protection during intercourse, they don’t which leads to higher risks of transmission.

Drug users usually also have the same problems with money – they need all their money to feed their habit, so often resort to sharing needles or using unclean or old ones. There is also a certain risk factor involved in things such as getting tattoos (especially in most Asian parlours where it’s not mandatory to use clean and fresh needles each time).

December 5, 2008 Posted by | exams, homework, Human Biology, school, School Work | Leave a comment